Iya kan ceritanya kemaren gue mengorek (ialah kayak kuping aja di korek) Marissa gitu kan ttg si you-know-who lah, hm terus dia cerita kalo si youknowwho itu udah pernah nembak cewek dan ceweknya sama-sama suka sama dia, tapi sayangnya dan malangnya, dia belom dapet license buat pacaran gitu sama ortunya. Duh kasian deh lo. Cuma tau gak, abis gue denger itu gue langsung broken dan hampir down, cuma gue bisa nutupin itu semua (gue bisa dibilang jago dalam nyembunyiin perasaan sedih). Gue ketawa dan ngomong ngeracau gak jelas, ya biasalah khasnya Tashi, gak jelas. Nah gue liat si LFT lagi ngeliatin gue sekilas pas gue nengok eh dia berbalik lagi. Penting gitu Tash? Iya kali.....-_-

Pokoknya pas pulang gue ngobrol dulu sama Marissa dan Alvinaku sayang <3 huahaha hm terus gue bt kan males pulang gitu soalnya gue bawa mobil sendiri jadi yah males aja gitu. Abis itu gue jalan kan ke mobil, di mobil gue teriak teriak marahmarah sendiri, coba lah bayangin siapa yang gak sedih pas perasaan cinta lo tumbuh lagi sama orang yang udah lo nanti bertahun-tahun terus tau orang yang kita suka kayak begitu? Sakit gak lo? Pasti lah! Makanya gue santai aja teriak teriak sambil ngeliatin youknowwho lagi ngobrol sama temennya dan belom pulang. Abis itu karena waktu udah makin malam, then I decided to go home with sorrow. Then, I decided to stop for a while for going to Indomaret. Sebenernya sih, gue ga niat ke sana pas pulang tapi gue pengin sekalian liat si LFT udah pulang apa belom. Masa, dia udah ilang! Kapan dia perginya? Hipotesis gue mengatakan, dia pulang pas mobil gue baru jalan, deh. Alasannya kenapa gue gak tau. Maybe, dia nungguin gue ampe pulang dulu, atau emang waktunya udah malem atau juga temennya itu udah pulang so he decided to go home. Itu semua baru kemungkinan, cuma kata papajaryanggantengsekali itu, maybe dia nungguin gue, tapi buat apa? Penting gitu ya gue ditungguin sama dia?

Yang bikin gue sedih sebenernya, kenapa dia gak pernah respon gue? Gue selalu coba ya buat muji dia, bikin dia merasa gimana gitu cuma kenapa dia gak pernah perhatiin perasaan gue ke dia? Gue sering cerita ke Marissa tentang dia dan sepertinya dia ngerti pembicaraan kami berdua. Marissa juga sering ngatain gue sama dia, dan pasti dia ngerti apa maksud dibalik itu semua, gue tau dia nggak bego. Tapi kenapa semuanya jadi begini? Pas dia sms gue terakhir kali kemaren, gue seneng banget (dia sms gue pas gue masih jadian sama mantan gue). Gue gak nyangka dia nganggep gue sebagai "temen-penghilang-bt-dan-lu-enak-diajak-ngobrol-jadi-temenin-gue-ngobrol" waktu itu. Soalnya Marissa bilang dia sms gue karena dia bt pengin ngobrol. Gue juga seneng dia mau bales wall gue yang sebenernya agak nggak penting (yah bagi gue sih, penting ya). Tapi gue gak tau sampai sejauh itu tentang dia. Bayangin, 3 tahun gue suka dan berharap dia pun sebaliknya, tapi hasilnya begini. Siapa juga yang bakal seneng dengan keadaan kayak begini? Okelah gue waktu itu lupain dia karena ada suatu purpose tapi nggak salah juga kan kalo gue balik lagi buat suka sama dia? Gue ngabisin tinta gue buat nulis tentang dia ber page-page di buku diary sama gue nulis nama dia di tangan gue. Apa ini balesannya? Setelah 3 tahun gue nanti dia..begini ya? Tapi sih, kalo emang dia lebih bahagia sama cewek itu dibandingkan gue, ya why not? Gue gabisa maksa dia buat suka sama gue kan. Gue ikut bahagia kalo dia bahagia. Semoga suatu saat dia terbuka hatinya buat gue, amin!

Yaudahlah stop ya sok sedihnya hahaha maaf jadi curcol-_- suram abis gue. Hm nih gue punya lirik lagu bagus, lagunya enak <3

Find A Way - The Used

Lay your head down just for now
Space fills your mind and you dream awhile
The sun floods your room as you drown your
Lungs full of breathing
Your true love believe

One more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way

Move let the stars suck you in
Hold tight, the night's air and breathe again
Let go and be burnt by the moon
Your hands full of feeling your true love,
Believe

One more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way
more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way

I love you to death
Could you love me to death?

I love you to death
Could you love me to death?

One more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way

One more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way
Letting love find a way
Letting love find a way
Letting love...

One more time to say I love you always
and keeping faith letting love find a way

Sama ini nih!

Smother Me - The Used

Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
The one who calls you baby

Love those songs <3 udah deh ya kepanjangan nih postingnya yega hahaha dadah!

Label: love, sickheart, song